I knew my legs would be shaking

9 Feb

I wanted to pick the perfect white dress and I wanted to go alone. I knew I would know it when I saw it, and didn’t want any help. None the less, when you go into a store like that, help is all your going to get, and lots of it. A lady took one look at me and squealed, “I have the perfect gown”! She pulled out a tight fitting , ivory, mermaid shaped gown. I shook my head and told her what I wanted was a tea length in bright white. She looked disappointed. I found the perfect dress, with a sweetheart neckline , fitted waist and big poofy bottom. It looked like it was made for me. I ended up buying two pairs of white shoes. One pair had high heels while the other was lower and way more comfortable. I wasn’t sure how nervous I might be walking down the aisle. Especially since I’d be going to the Basilica of Saint’s Peter and Paul in Center City Philadelphia!
When the big day came, I opted for the lower heels, I was a nervous wreck. I knew my legs would be shaking. My mom and my best friend Julie helped me fluff my dress and pin a simple veil to my head.”J” was already at the front of the church. I couldn’t stop looking at all the beautiful statues and artwork, it was amazing. This was the most incredible church, I never knew there was anything like this. Such a holy place. It was time to walk up. I paced myself and kept my eyes on the feet in front of me, when she reached the fifth pew, I started down the aisle. It was surreal. Confirmandi were coming down every aisle. Cardinal Kroll was there to welcome us all into the church. I was going to be confirmed and receive my first Eucharist. I couldn’t stop shaking. When it was time, I went up and the Cardinal made an indellible mark on my forehead with chrism in the sign of the cross. I received the Holy Spirit, I was marked as one of God’s, finally. The mass was so beautiful, and at communion, we all went up before the rest of the guests to receive the Eucharist. I flashed back to Andy’s pier on Long Beach Island NJ, when I held my sand dollar up to the sun, between my thumbs and index fingers. The Cardinal held the host up in just the same way. He said” The Body of Christ”. I said “Amen” and received our Lord for the first time. Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity.

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